im just so hurt . so damn fucking hurt .

yesterday you told me you didnt pierce your ear . and like today , you told me the different story of yours . haih . what the fuckkk ! im terribly so angry . and hurt of cos . haih . why must you do that ? want become matrep isit ? i hate that . reeli and sumpah . eina taq suker larr . i got my reason . and i dont want this to happen agin to me .yesterday nyte i got a nightmare and i cant sleep well . wake up at 4am and i like crying on my bed thinking and hoping that what he said at facebook isnt real . but end up , you know what i mean . why buddy ? why ? why cant you just stop it seii ? haih . i let you smoke . ifah doesnt . i dont let you pierce but you insist . why ? fuuck you . fuuck you . fuuck you . i keep repeating to myself . what the hell . what the fuck . i keep whispering . haih . i hate myself alot and i mean it . so much . i cried like a stupid person , thinking so hard . but you wont ever know. you hurt me alot , ive seen the change in you alot . super duper . i neh layan you so much , cos i just dont want myself to be hurt. i tried to give you the best of me, but end up ... how am i supposed to do that ? i dont mean to hurt you with my message just now . im reeli hurt . i cant think anything right now . feeling like i wanna give up hope in everything , but i doesnt want this to stop me from studing for n levels . no point . im such a failure in everything but why ? i dont want you to become like old buddy(khairi) . thats all . i believe in you . and haihhh . speechless . *tears rolling again* . you said you dont care ? reeli ? dont care already ? FINEEEEEEE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i accept that answer . and if you are reading this , i wanna say , thanks uhh for everythin mirza. you aare reeli great . my rescuer .. and why must it ends so fast ? you cum and go . deep in me , noone knows . expect god . dont ever do this to me , please i beg you .

changing my link soon . dont find me if you make up your mind to leave me , mirza

labels : only u could hear me shouting for help , only u could guide me cos im trap in the dark .